Monday, August 3, 2009
The big surprise of the weekend was not the crazy rumor that Sarah and Todd Palin were headed for Divorce Court. It only takes half a brain to know and one eye to see that this couple is madly in love with each other. The big surprise also was not the conversations about President Obama planning to raise taxes on even people making under $250,000, thereby breaking a campaign promise. Anyone who believed Obama when he said it was as gullible as...well...as those who believed he really was looking to reach common ground on abortion, never heard Rev. Wright say anything anti-American in 20 years of attending his church, and didn't launch his political career in the living room of Bill Ayers. But I digress.
The big surprise was an apology printed in the Anchorage Daily News by Dan Fagan. Now, for those who don't know, Fagan is a talk show host in Alaska. He is most known as a chief Palin hater in her state--very vocal, very disrespectful, very anti-Palin. So what happened?
Some are ecstatic that he would have such a divine revelation. Others have chosen to dismiss his apology as nonsense. Still there are those who are so wounded by the magnitude of attacks on Sarah Palin that they don't know what to think, so distrustful of anyone are they--and understandably so.
I understand each of these perspectives:
Group 1: Wow! Look what the Lord has done! Only God could change Dan Fagan's heart so dramatically.
Group 2: Please! After what he has done, he'll have to do better than that. If he expects us to believe that sorry apology, he's out of his mind.
Group 3: We don't know what to think. We'll be keeping our eyes on this fella.
So what do I think? I understand each of these perspectives. Although the article was written by Fagan, my answer to the question really has nothing to do with him at all. In fact, in spite of his anti-Sarah history, as far as I'm concerned, he's inconsequential in this whole conversation.
What?! But he's been one of those anklebiters you've been writing about for months and months, Adrienne.
I understand that.
But he has been disrespectful and a thorn in Sarah's side, Adrienne.
I understand that, too.
But he has been a ring leader in the movement to destroy someone you hold in such high regard, Adrienne.
Yes, I am aware of this.
So what gives?
Okay, let me tell you.
Look, I'm not a Sarah fan, I'm not a groupie, and I'm not a cheerleader. I'm a Sarah supporter. I believe in her, what she stands for, and, with the help of God, where she is able to take this nation. I trust that she has been endowed with a wisdom that is much lacking and much needed in America. I work hard to defend her against the attacks of those who speak ill of her and seek to devour her and her family. But more than anything, my commitment to Sarah Palin is one of prayer and intercession. As I have even told her, I feel God has called me to pray for her and her family. This is a responsibility that I believe God has placed upon me, and one that I take very, very seriously. My mindset is this: I can yell "Sarah!" all I want, I can blog to my fingers fall off, and I can give interviews until my voice is hoarse, but if I'm not praying for her, if I'm not willing to cry out to God on her behalf, if I'm not willing to stand in the gap, as they say, then I'm no good to or for Sarah Palin, and all my support is in vain. Period!
So what does this have to do with anything? It has everything to do with everything--and it's the reason I say that Fagan is really not important in this thing. His epiphany is just one of many to come. Whether he's sincere or not and whether he can last in his new focus or not don't even matter. What matters is a word I believe God laid on my heart not that long ago, something that I have shared with some, including some people in Alaska, something that I've felt so strongly recently, and was only confirmed by Fagan's apology. Now if you think I'm waxing spiritual...you're right, because this is spiritual. This is what's been on my heart:
Expect two things:
1) In time the eyes of some who have fought against Sarah will be opened, and they will see the person she truly is. These people will be made painfully aware that they were deceived, that they were tools in the hand of the enemy, and were used by him to try to destroy her. And when they see it, they will hurt that they were so completely, utterly deceived. It will be a hard realization for them--but they will repent.
2) Some will simply never get it, never be able to see their error, no matter the evidence surrounding them, and they will not be able to understand why Sarah's support has grown and why she has been so successful.
So the apology issued, as far as I can see, is only the beginning of more to come, just a confirmation of what I knew was coming. It seems so wild, so far-fetched, so completely out of the blue--but expect more. On the flip side, Bill Maher's recent comment that America is a "stupid country because Sarah Palin could be president" is evidence of an inability to "get it." He knows she can be president, but he simply cannot wrap his brain around it, nor does he even see his error in his attacks on her.
Not everyone is going to understand the popularity, power, and success Sarah Palin will increasingly experience, and I'm sure that's no surprise to you. But mark my words: more realizations that the personal attacks against her were wrong, and more accurate, evil, are coming. Below check out examples of both. First, see the video clip of Bill Maher's "stupid" statement. You only have to watch the first 30 seconds to see what I mean. Then, read Dan Fagan's apology, for which he seems to credit God.
Clarity is a wonderful thing. You can be plugging along in life day-by-day thinking everything is fine, when all of a sudden out of nowhere it hits you: a moment of clarity. You start seeing things differently.
For me, times of clarity have always come as a result of my faith. Over the past 30 years my relationship with God has been much like others I've had. It grows hot and cold. I will acknowledge I am to blame for the cold spurts. I have not always prioritized my relationship with God and I can point to this as the reason for most of the problems, heartaches and troubles I've experienced.
Despite my inconstancy and unfaithfulness, God has always come through for me. He pulls me out of jam after jam. Through reading the Bible he gives me wisdom, insight and guidance. I have also experienced times when I would get a thought that would bring such intense inner peace and clarity, I knew it was from God. Jesus explained the phenomenon this way in John 10:27. "My sheep know my voice, and I know them, and they follow me."
You say, what if you get a thought and you think it is from God but isn't? This is possible, but I believe that is what his word, the Bible is for. The Bible teaches scripture must back up everything.
Which brings me to a verse a friend recently shared with me. It is found in Ephesians and says, "Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen."
When I heard this verse it instantly confirmed what I had suspected for some time. Too much of what was coming out of my radio show, Web site, and Sunday column was unwholesome. For some reason I had convinced myself it was my job to run down and criticize others. It is one thing to analyze policy and issues. It is an entirely different thing to tear down someone's character with personal attacks.
I will tell you I am ashamed of the way I have conducted myself publicly in recent years and frankly I am embarrassed by it too.
When I criticize politicians for the policies they propose, I have no right to assume I know their motives. They may honestly believe they are doing the right thing.
When State Sen. Hollis French held up a parental consent bill in his committee it infuriated me and I attacked him personally. What I should have considered is that French may have honestly believed he was doing the right thing. I had no right to say the things I said about him. The same is true for other politicians I have torn down simply because the policies they favor didn't line up with my worldview.
So where do we go from here? If after this column I still have my Daily News gig and radio show, I am going to change the way I critique our leaders. I'll focus on policy and not the personal. Yes, if I believe a politician is acting corruptly I will say so, but only if there is ample evidence. I will not speculate on the motive behind a politician promoting a policy.
Does this change mean I will lose many of my radio listeners? Perhaps. But recently I've lost the joy in my work. It has become a grind. I now know why. If my profession calls for tearing down others to be successful, then I'll just have to find another career.
In conclusion, I want to publicly apologize to Sarah Palin, Sean Parnell, Hollis French, Art Hackney, Mark Begich, Frank Murkowski, Matt Claman, Lisa Murkowski, Don Young, Ivan Moore and too many others that limited space won't allow me to name.
Over the coming weeks I will be reaching out to each of these leaders and others and apologizing in person. I also apologize to those of you who have followed my work. I have let you down and I am sorry.